快樂的加州之旅 Joyful LA trip

Here are our praises to God for our LA trip.

1. Safety. Yes, we got to LA safely, and we got home safely. On our way back, we had a short 30 minutes to catch a connecting flight from Houston to KC. We had to walk from terminal D to terminal B, and it was a very far distance and we even had to take a 'transit'. Cheryl was running while holding my hands because we were walking fast. Amazingly, we made it! Eveybody else were inside the plane. We were the 2nd to the last who got in. :)

2. Friends. Some of the sweet moments were hanging out with friends. We spent time eating and fellowshiping with friends there. Especially our hosts, Chris' family, Justin's family, and Janejane, we saw them almost everyday. They are all lovely people.

3. Ministry. We're grateful for different opportunities to share at small groups, prayer meeting and Sunday service. We were very encouraged to see so many passionate lovers of Jesus, pressing on for their pursuit of the Lord. Their prayers and devotion to the Lord have touched our heart.

4. Fun places. We brought the kids to Irvine lake for a short family time. We played 'pooh stick' and it was one of the memorable moments for the kids. I brought them to the little old mall and Schabarum park where we used to hang out as a family when we lived there. I saw Samuel's face lit up when we got to the park. We also went to the beach with friends. That's my kids' favorite! Barefoot on the sand, stepping on the ocean water, getting wet chased by the waves, sand castles... yup! Also, our friends brought my 2 boys to the circus!! First time in their lives! How they kept talking about their circus experience to us.

5. Support. Praise the Lord for providing through these generous people. We had our expenses covered. God once again proved Himself faithful. While doing the work of intercessory missionary here, we know we have partners back home in LA, who invested in us, and will share with us the joy and fruit of our ministry.

6. Healing. Cheryl was sick since we bought tickets to go back to LA. She got fever too while we were there. I felt it was an attack of the enemy. Sure enough after our Wednesday ministry, she had no more fever and started to feel better. Praise God! Both Jerry and I, at the end of the trip, were getting sick from being too tired. But God has protected us.

Thank You, God, for an awesome trip filled with many surprises!

Something inside of me is different

今天是LA Ministry Trip的第四天。當我在服事中，發現我裏面不一樣了！

這次來加州，我竟然主動打電話給認識的小組長，問他們可不可以讓我們來他們的小組分享。不覺得厚臉皮，只是裏面有一股熱情，很想把我們過去一年在IHOP-KC所學的，與弟兄姐妹分享。以前我是絕對不會這樣做的，覺得要謙卑，別人邀請了才分享，縂覺得自己沒什麽好分享的，也覺得自己沒有口才，不會分享，不要厚臉皮。。。等等的原因。其實那都是錯誤的思想。

打了幾通電話，時間也安排得滿滿的。 心裏好興奮，可以分享主的話。有一份說不出來的喜樂，可以與神同工。沒有壓力，沒有顧慮。充滿了熱情和期待。

昨天我第一次在教會禱告會分享也！哈哈，知道嗎，是我自告奮勇要分享，這不是我以前會做的。教會給我們機會，沒有指定Jerry分享，我就告訴Jerry，那我來分享吧！哈哈，連我都快不任得我自己了。

原本在準備的另一份分享，我的心就一直在想，他們需要聼這個嗎？我要如何去講，要花更多時閒去研讀。。。等等。到了出發前兩天早上，神問我，那是你的passion嗎？什麽才是你的passion？我第一個想到的就是“啓示錄”與末世信息，就是關於耶穌的再來。我明白了，我該分享我心中的passion。所以，開始重新準備。

雖然時間匆促，但我在準備時，就心裏很興奮。準備信息，可以是那麽喜樂、那麽“好玩”的，好奇妙喲！

昨天要分享前，竟然沒有壓力。而且，很期待，可以把心中的passion與人分享。這是怎麽樣的一個服事啊？我才發現，我不一樣了，原來神已經改變了我。原來與神同工，是輕省、喜樂的。

沒有到昨晚禱告會聽見我分享的人，可以想象，我不是口齒伶俐的人（我誠實地看自己，但沒有自卑感），也沒有講道的經驗（可是我很喜歡翻譯），講出來的東西就是那樣子。可是，你知道嗎，我不但準備時很興奮，講的時候也心裏很興奮，講完了還是很興奮（就是現在在寫這個blog時，我的心裏還是很興奮）。我不再意我講得不好，我非常喜樂可以與神同工，祂使用我這個卑微的器皿，我也很感恩牧師願意給我這個機會，也很感恩弟兄姐妹的保容、願意聼我的分享。

我在台上分享時，看見台下人的表情。沒有看見有人睡着或打瞌睡，但有些表情是“huh?”（皺著眉頭，好像聼不懂）。當牧師來結尾時，說的話，我非常amen。他說，“如果你們聼不懂秀君說的，沒關係，因爲啓示錄是很難的一本書。。。”牧師還鼓勵大家買一本我介紹的書Revelation Study Guide by Mike Bickle。 實在太好了，我講的有限，但他們若自己去研讀啓示錄，就會更清楚、更明白。

以前，我會想，我講得不好，不清楚。。。以前，我會很在意我的表現，敬拜帶得好嗎，服事成功嗎。。。以前的我，會因爲敬拜帶得不好，心情沉重，重復思考哪裏出差錯了，哪裏可以改進。換作以前的我，一定很在意我講得好不好。但是這次讓我自己也很驚訝的，就是我雖知道有許多進步的餘地，我心裏那份喜悅、興奮、熱情，並沒有減少。我很興奮可以把我心中的passion分享了出去。我感覺到父神非常喜悅，祂沒有要求我講得像某某人一樣好，就好像做父母的，不會要求初生嬰孩說，“媽媽，請你給我奶喝，我餓了”，也不會要求一年紀的學生，說的故事像大學生一樣流利生動。神沒有要求我講得像張茂松一樣好，或向Jerry一樣好。真的也！

這次的服事，我發現我不一樣了，原來神改變了我。服事的果效是重要，但是，與神同工的過程更重要。我好享受這個過程。This is about my relationship with Jesus！服事神，不是勞苦擔重擔。服事神，是與神同工。有人領受10個硬幣，有人5個，有人1個。有多少，就服事多少。有1個的，不需要籌到10個才去服事。與神同工的過程，我摸著神的心，神也摸著我的心。。。我更認識祂，祂也讓我更認識我自己。

我想，我是被神的喜樂靈充滿了！哈利路亞！